Annie Lytle School, Eternally Missed

Posted in Uncategorized on January 16, 2012 by Feanix

Today I heard that one of our most alluring, hauntingly creepy and historic locations in Jacksonville burned down this morning.

Annie Lytle School, known to many as ‘School 4’ lost its final battle with the city, vandals, and multiple fires it has faced over the many years.

Growing up and passing it on the old I10/95 exchange, the building with balloons always caught my eye. I remember asking “what is that place?” To be answered with “just an old building”. Still I would stare at is while passing by in such awe. Something drew me to it and I knew I had to learn about this building.

As years passed the new 10/95 exchange began to develop, paint chipped and boards fell, fences did not exist and I would find myself sitting on the steps of this old school watching traffic, and peering in begging to get the courage to “jump through the hole into the darkness”. Fearing what was lurking in the darkness I fell victim to the fear from all those horror stories I heard about the place. From the janitor/principal being a cannibal to the boiler exploding and killing all the students I began to visualize all the over exaggerated stories while peering in the sole broken window.

Side Steps of the right corridor

Annie Lytle School

I eventually would walk the perimeter peering in each little break or crack I could to get a glimpse of the inside.  I noticed the decrepit old house that was behind the school, since torn down, and tried to visualize who lived there. Was it the old janitor? Was it the principal? Or was it just an old house? I never got to see the inside of that overgrown property before it met its demise.

Entrance to the Boiler Room

Annie Lytle School, Boiler Room

In High School I would tell the tales I heard of Ole’ Annie Lytle School, and we would dare to go inside but imaginations eventually would get the best of us.

Finally I mustered the courage to go through the tiny window to the left of the main entrance. My eyes adjusted and I was met with the most thrilling feeling of excitement. The halls were dark, barely any graffiti, doors were still intact and the walls still had some classwork on them. I wandered around the halls peeking into each classroom with amazement. Then I found the auditorium. The ceiling was still there, the stage was in great shape aside form a pentacle painted on the floor.

As I walked the halls I began to visualize how the place looked before it was shut down. For a moment I swore I could hear the children laughing and playing. The more I roamed the more I was amazed at the condition of the place, yes it was dusty and yes there was some vandalism but the majority of the building was just in need of a good cleaning.

I left the school and told my friends of all the interesting things I saw and begged them to join me on my next excursion. They declined.

A few years passed and 5 Points was the home for the “freaks”. Any and every walk of life would gather at Fuel Coffehouse or catch a show at Club 5/Marquee. My roommate at the time and I decided to go for a walk in the park and I told her of School 4 and how amazing it was inside. We decided to go in. The newly erected fence around it was wide open as were the metal doors that closed the front entrance.

Auditorium

Auditorium

I immediately noticed that the old doors that closed off the front hall on the left were no longer hanging. And there were obvious signs of vandalism.  We strolled around the grounds and ended up sitting on the upper balcony for a while just watching the city. It was calming.

There was one evening when, after a tiff, my ride left me in 5 Points and it was getting dark, I had no phone, no money, and no way to get home. So I decided to go back to School 4 and stay the night. I opened the little closet door in the front of the building and cleared out a space in the back corner. I knew nobody would know I was there or think to look behind all the metal electric equipment. It was a little chilly and some creepy noises could be heard when cars passed but other than that it was quite peaceful. To this day, many of my friends still are in awe as to how I was “brave enough to stay”.

Top Roof Corridor

Top Roof Corridor

I went in many more times after that just to scope out the place and share more stories of the history. In early 2002 I started looking up as much as I could on the location only to hit a brick wall over and over about why it was shut down and never reopened. Stories of asbestos, vandalism, failing economy, new schools and so on were littering the results. To this day I have not found a conclusive statement as to why it closed in the first place.

Years passed again and 5 Points changed. From the hip and trendy scene to the more uppity feel, many stores closed including Fuel and Club 5. Patrons vanished one by one as the area transformed once more.

While visiting my old friend from High School I decided to stop by Annie Lytle and found that the ceiling in the auditorium had collapsed. It was pretty fresh and fear that more may fall while I was inside rushed me out.

Annie Lytle School

Annie Lytle School

On my next visit the roof was cleared out, there was new wood on the windows and more attempts to keep people out of the establishment. This did not work as many doors and windows were still kicked in by urban explorers, transients, and vandals.

More of the structure now had paint, holes, and evidence of small fires and living spaces. I could see that the building was inevitably dying.

The once wooden upper halls now housed many plants, weeds, and vines. All the doors had been kicked off the hinges.  More and more holes were in the walls from scrappers going for copper pipes.

As I returned more and more for photo shoots, to explore and to just visit I would see that more of the building was being torn apart. Upon my last visit there were busted televisions that were tossed down the stairs, the walls in the classrooms were busted nearly down, more holes were put in the floor and the boiler had been stripped of all of its functioning parts.

Still, the building held a peculiar allure.

This morning I heard the news of the fire and though my heart sank, I thought of a dying soul waiting for that final moment to be free and though we have lost an iconic piece of our urban culture, I know the memories of Annie Lytle School will forever hold strong in the ones that truly respected her. 

I’m in a Music Video :)

Posted in Uncategorized on May 13, 2011 by Feanix

Don’t Lose Hope

Posted in Uncategorized on December 29, 2010 by Feanix

Holidays are a time of joy, laughter, and time you can spend with family and friends. Most people are full of cheer and joy and whether you believe in religion or not, it seems that everyone is humble and happy. Not many people look at the other side of this coin during the holidays. Sometimes the happy person is smiling because they feel like they have to.

With the recent event of my childhood friend attempting to take her life, I sat back and thought of the people who have no family, who feel like they have hit the bottom and there is no way to rise above it. On December 23 it will be 6 years since my uncle took his life. None of us knew it was even a thought in his mind. Saturday, my friend Tina put a gun to herself and pulled the trigger. Thankfully, she will recover. This is not the outcome for many people.

In this day and age many people are given a label if they talk about the darkness they feel. If they have that thought of ending it, or being alone. They are labeled “Emo” and scoffed as attention seekers. As some of these people may indeed be seeking the attention, there are others that are not. Others truly feel the pain and keep it hidden until the limp body is found by someone that loved them. Leaving the remainder of the living to question why.
I have had many brushes with this sad event from friends and family that took their lives. I question myself wondering if I could have done something. With a young friend I passed in my younger days. I was running around working, going to shows, and dating someone but Scott asked me out. I kindly let him down and never saw him again. Months later I heard that his mother found him hanging in his room. Would that have happened if I went out? These are questions we all ask. I know it was not my fault but we are all left with unanswered questions.
When I was 17 years old I was going through the teenage madness that most do. Rebelling, wanting to be my own person. I fought depression and still do to this day. I remember one evening I was in a fight with my parents and I felt like I had no outlet and that I was worthless. I broke open my razor and I pulled out the blade. I pressed hard to my left wrist and at that moment I felt like I was slapped in the face. I pulled the blade away from my flesh and I thought “That was very dumb”. I got out of the tub and I put on my bracelet so nobody could see the cut.

Life got better, then harsh and good again. It is life. Each awful event had a way of making me stronger. Many things have kicked me down and made me want to do nothing but stop breathing but picking myself up and dusting off the ashes was more empowering. This is how I got the name Feanix. No matter how many times I “die” I will be reborn stronger.

I wish the ones facing the depressions had the courage to put down the gun, blade, pills and see that life is worth living. There are people you can talk to and there are many nonjudgmental places you can go to seek help. I am glad to lend an ear to anyone who feels that they are at the end. If you don’t talk to anyone about it then we will never know you are in need of help.

I am a proud supporter of TWLOHA.com and they are a great organization where you can get the help you need. If at any point you feel that you are at the end of your rope, talk to someone.

I hope you all have a great and safe holiday. And remember that you don’t have to be nice just on Christmas, you never know what the person you encounter has been through and a smile could change the whole day for them.

Article posted on Boondock Betties

Crawl

Posted in Uncategorized on December 2, 2010 by Feanix



Words by Feanix, Image by John Shippee

Zombie Love

Posted in Uncategorized on September 13, 2010 by Feanix

A little photo shoot turned into a stop motion film. I had such a blast! Enjoy!

Awakening

Posted in Uncategorized on September 1, 2010 by Feanix

I was held down, beaten to dust with nothing in the world pulling me away from the wreckage.
Darkness consumed me until the soul fire ignited.
Seeing the world now as a brighter place.
Soul fully awakened and revived and it just took a dark hand to grab me and show me the beauty of light.
I put myself in the killing fires and I let it consume.
My thoughts raged wars and my spirit gave in.
I see you all now, I see with new eyes.
How did I think I was flying high before now?
It was a façade of being that I didn’t realize until truth rushed over me like a flood.
The world’s beauty encompasses my mind and it is like a high that will never end.
I am sure I know I will fall again as no light can be seen without dark.
Strength prevails and I see it as I was told.
What an amazing feeling in the intensity of my emotion.
I never want this to end. On my darkest hour I will look back to this moment and see the face of truth and realize that as it is said, “it is always darkest before the dawn”.
Could it get any better? Only the pending hours will tell.
I wish I could bottle this up and give it out to my friends.

I am awakened

Can’t sleep…clowns will eat me

Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2010 by Feanix

Ello Lovies!

I had a wicked awesome photoshoot with The Darkerside Girls. Scarlett, Linda, and I were in School 4 (supposedly haunted, abandoned school in Riverside) and played Sick Clowns get the innocent school girl. It was fun. Here are a few shots and you can see more at http://darkersidegirl.com

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